a retard's blog

2008-03-29T00:32:00.000-07:00

SHIT.
FUCK.
CRAP.

those are the only three words i can say.
hahahaha. i feel like a crazy womannn.
im half-regretting it. half happy about it.
2 more weeks to comp dayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!
im so effing nervous lah. i cant concentrate in
class coz every time i try to listen to the teacher,
i start to hear band songs in my head.its like aargggh!
then at band, i'll think about all my other problems.
then cannot concentrate. aper seyy...
oh my me gosh. im going bongkusss.can someone like sit down
with me for 87364472897hrs and listen to all my problemss?
there are peopl that i know they would want to listen to me.
but i cant talk to them. its too embarassing. i cant talk.
i need someone who doesnt knoe me nor do i know him/her.
its too many things for my tiny little headdd.
nvm..back to band.
yesterday aft we came back from wherever we sang happy birthday
to Belinda/Ms Koh. she very nicee..buy everyone chocolates.
got toblerone and merci. very nice but the merci melted already by the time i opened it.
haha. then under rotunda saw the indonesian ppl frm jakarta.
3 of them followed my cass . their names are
Wendy(guy), Stephanie and krisvani.
so fun when they were here lahh. so cute.
haiss... wow. i juz realised how long i never blog liaoo.
kae larrh. gtgggg...BUBYEEEEE!

2008-03-17T05:53:00.000-07:00

*this is for him*

hey, i think you know already about everything, right? im not sure how/when,
but i hope that you wont ignore me completely. i know its natural for you not
to like me and stuff. i also know that you like another person already. really,
im confused. im like speechless.

________________________________________________________________

heys people! omg. i have so many things to do and so little time!!!
need to do malay project-->by thurs*
no time coz everyday got cca.
need to do music skit-->by next wk mon*
no time coz busy the whole week. fri got cuz son bdae prty.

HOW? TELL ME HOW??

am i supposed to stay up late with all my grp members at someones hse and
go hme in the middle of the night ?(impossible)
am i supposed to stay over at their house??(double impossible)

aaaahhhhhhh.....!!!!! go die lah. they never give us enough time lohh.
so many things to do. so sianzz. shit! science! kayy. gtg b4 my sis cme hme.
byebyeeeeee!!!

♥♥♥♥♥i love you!
Take Care !!!!

2008-03-15T22:00:00.000-07:00

hey people. wow.
band camp
>super fun + memorable
>tiring, but worth it =D
>nightwalk was okay,
(my grp got the scary parts first so
not tht scary) the 1E boys toilet there
was our first onee.
winnie kickd the cubicle door
and it hit geraldine *ouch*
then the 'dead' guy laughed
and everyone was laughing in the toilet.
the hall back alley was freakyy!
i was like "so she is the mother and
he is the father" and suddenly yug han
from nowhere go in front of me.
i freaked out and ran down the stairs
while everyone else was still up there.
outside audi was weird??
jermaine was one of the ghosts.
me, being the oh-so-retarded version
of me, told him that i'll pay for the socks
and stuff the nxt practice XD.
super funny loh. chin kiat was wearing this
broken mask and we were like
"wats this? phantom of the opera??"
>watched the video of us doing the stuffs
and seriously, with that kind of standard,
i doubt we will win but i know with more
effort and concentration we will do it.(:
act, i dun think we even need to perform
for the judges to say who wins. its obvious
that tk band will win rite?? duhh.=P

wed
wow, ange blanjaed me and zhihui
pizza (trio cheese) *yummy* for lunch.
supposed to do history.supposed.
but obviously, being part of the crazy
bunch in twoeff, obviously we will laugh
more than we will do our work.
aft dat went to lib. yidi yada.
THEN HOR,
THAT SUPER-CUTE LITTLE GIRL HOR,
wrote on my book hor,
MY MAMA IS MARIAM.
errgghhhh!!!! thank goodness your cute
coz if youre not, i would have cut u into
2749534373481228192673842 pieces
and blend you and drank you *not*.
i got phobia of mariam oredi.

fri
watched leap years with mummy darling
(zhiyin) and ex-hubby(nisa). the story is like
super touching can? but too bad, i never cry.
i only cry when i watch cerita hindustan. serious.
those touching touching ones lahh. of ourse i
got cry about my own sad stories too, duh.
they bought tee shirtsss. i wanted to, but no $$.
aft dat my darling cuzzin called and said that
her sis( my cuzzin too.duh) wanted to blanja
swensens!!!!! me, being my self said yes.
then when reach there, i told my cuzzin
to order for me coz i was shy.hehe. cant believe rite??
then of all things, my food came first and
i was waiting for their food to come bfore i ate
but thy were like making me eat. so sad.

sat
came to band late.
i tot it started at 9 lah walao.but it strtd at 8.
quite okay lah.the only bad thing was that it was freakin hot.
i almost wanted to faint but i told myself not to.
see.i so good.=PP haha. they had sectional outing
with euphos but i didnt go coz
#1 i jus watched movie on fri.
#2 i am bankrupt
#3 i do not want to see *** face
#4 i dont feel like gg out with them on that day(only)

so i went to zy hse. thought of wat to write in that letter.
aft dat went hme get ready go wedding dinner.
it so happened to be that mr moozamir
( i dunnoe how to spell; sorry for the wrong spelling)
was there. the bride was my dad's cousin's daughter
who was also my mom's colleague.
he came to the table tht me my mom n
her friends were sitting and was asking me something.
i could not hear a thing coz i was listening to a song
which is on full blast into my ears coz the song they
were playing not nice(it was live music).

so yeah, thts all i have to say aft 47692384710386934
days of not blogging. act got more. but canot say.
strictly confidential. hehe. bybye.

brokn girl signing off!

2008-03-15T08:36:00.000-07:00

finally blogged! sey, got a lot to say
but i cant put them into words, sai.
so, im gonna post later. im gonna
edit my template noww. bubye.

2008-02-27T06:02:00.000-08:00

omfg. i just spent like 1hr linkin people that i noe
from zhiyins blog(thanks zhiyin). ooh, and ,
ZHIYIN! did u realise something?? i used ur skin!
not ur real skin, duh. blogg one. hyehhyeh.

thank you zhiyin!!

ooh, angelyn, im still waiting for you to show me a blogskin
of changmin!! he very cuteee!! but there's someone else
who is cuter. but that persons attitude sucks. you know.
hehe... i miss you leh. i dont miss zhiyin.(jk) but i miss
you more!!! hehe.. sisters for life xP

angelyn, i dont know who changmin is,
except that he is a dong bang member
and that he is cute! xP

people!! attention!! im not going to school for tomorrow
and friday coz of my eye. dat doctor so stoopid.
go give me mc for what?!?!?!
doctor: what cca need turning turning one?
me: band.
doctor:you play clarinet or trumpet?
me:trumpet
doctor:oh, that one ah,-makes rumpet noise
which DOES NOT sound like a trumpet- very noisy ah
having remedial ah, got headache
p.s. he is from tk technical-.-
and he sucks coz now i cannot kill my dearests-
angelyn and zhiyin.

this is how im gg to kill them BOTH.
i shall:
♥stab them 84856845883 times.
♥pour boiling water all over them.
♥cut them into tiny bite sized pieces(fit for a bird)
♥feed them at the crocodiles in mandai zoo.

okay. time to use my eye drop and drop into bed.
an dream dream all he way and wake up
being totally bored coz dearest angelyn and zhiyin
not with me,duh. i wanna go school!!! and get high.
if i knew doctor will giv mc n i dunneed to go school,
i should have went to kota tinggi by myself( with ange&zy)
seyy...i wanna see my tic tacs! i miss them soo much.
i didnt get to say byebye to them !
i miss hubby! (we are not divorced yet coz i havent sign papers)
hubby, come back soon. i need to tell you something.urgently.
**hubby = nisa♥ **dearests = angelyn♥ and zhiyin♥

byebye dearests♥
and hubby♥
and tictactoes♥!

2008-02-25T03:09:00.000-08:00

you ji bais! go and die lah fuckers!
you think you so good izzit? hah?
gossip about everyone everywhere and everytime!
*******, *******, ******, *****, ******* & ******
ji bai faces suck ur fathers cock lah idiot!*
want to gossip then gossip somewhere else lah!
and you fucking seperti gergaji bermata dua people out there,
let me tell you one thing, no one loves \likes you to be in this world
lah, kae? dun act as if youre so good and own the world lah!
oh, and you, i dont even know why i fell in love with you.
(he is not part of the above list)
i found out one thing aft thinking about you these
few days- that your not worth one bit of mine or anyones heart!
hati kau busuk macam taik&kentut kau sendiri!
fuck i hate this school sia!its full of different people
of the same dirty attitude! sorry lah, but sometimes u make
mistakes too! and to HIM, I HATE YOU FOR BEING WHO I THOUGHT YOU WERENT THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU.
i feel sorry for ur mother and father.ESPECIALLY your mother
to have given birth to such a dissapointment.
hey people! im super tired after sat & sunday of band.
hehe.. didnt go to school today coz my sis gg to shanghai today = me having the whole room to myself untill april 12,
which is also the comp day and mummie(zhiyin) bdae.
haiss, so unfair. she gets to spend 1mnt++ in shanghai doing researches in a university lab(boring) and shop! and her frieng gave her one whole pack of letters for her to open everyday. and theres 400yuan in one of the letters plus chocolates and sweets. super nice can? ooh, and the vegetarian food at the can teen at terminal 2 is super nice but the chilli paste is super spicy(but i can tahan)!
ooo...counting down to the big day!!! byess!!!

2008-02-20T04:00:00.000-08:00

hellos amigos!!!
today aft school went to pp
to buy something for someone
with kenny, xavier, novia,
zhiyin, angelyn n jiamin.
we went to the first shop.
then the second shop the person so irritating.
coz i ask angelyn to ask novia
to ask the person if it was halal or not
(coz got some pork floss
bread thingy on the rack.)
the person juz anihoe say yes.
i dun believe ... oh oh oh..
novia can speak F language!!
finally i found someone in tk!!
haiss... then went to long john!!
i n jiamin bought 8oz clam chowder each
and novia and zhiyin bought combo 1.
then i had to go home coz got class...

p.s. shit! i forgot some of my formation steps.
im gonna die!!! kaes, bye.

ANGELYN!!!
I THINK URE RITE.
IM STARTING TO LIKE
DONG BANG SHIN KI!!

ZHIYIN!!!
HELP ME STOP
THINKING BOUT HIM!!!
OOH, I THINK IM GOING
TO PASS MY GEOG COZ I
STUDY LIKE SIAO!♥

omg, i frekin love him lahh...
someone please help me to not be
obsessive at least??

2008-02-19T05:05:00.000-08:00

hehe! i got more of
his pics! he is the cutest guy man!
wahh,,,
i cant wait to see himm!!!

hi!today went to
7 11 with angelyn to meet my
pri sch fren to tok to her.
tot got a lot to sae but nothing one.
aft dat i bought cup noodles
and and and and and...
GUESS WHAT?!?!?!
a money-faced person
like me can actually ACCIDENTALLY
THROW AWAY $5!!!!!!!!!
wahlaoo!!!
now got no $$ to eat in sch.argh!
den went to sushi shop at
chai chee wif my cuzzin to eat,
what else?use money to buy bag
for sushi! haiss.. told her about **him.
nvm, even tho she is 17, she is like
my best friend. but she is my
best cuzzin. i got another 2
best cuzzzins but i know
i can only tell her about these
teenage complications.
aniwaes,,, today was ROCKIN'
but friday was better.

2008-02-18T04:36:00.000-08:00

yesseh! today i went to
see my primary school friends
aft sch but b4 dat went
to pp with ange and zy!
so hot! we were looking
for a present for him
but in the end never buy.
zhiyin went with nickson at
12 and ange had to go home at 1.
so me and ange went to mini toons
took for something and then
we saw debbie!
i dunoe wat to buy lehh...
nisa, zhiyin, angelyn, someone!
give me ideas lah.
omg, im like super boredd.
ange, can you please post a post not about
DONG BANG SHIN KI???
i know they are nice.
actually to be honest,
i like their voice and they
are hot too, yes. but
please dun get addicted to it?
oh, about the audition thing,
canlah. i try but i dont think i will be gg
to LOS ANGELES with you only.
my parents wont let
2 13+ yr old ppl to go overseas alone, ok?
please understand that we are
GIRLS!!
OKAY? YAY!
kaes zhiyin!!!
blogg!!! i start my blog u dun blog.
aiyo! ape nak jadi ni??
hehe!
ooh =DD
sorry but i am
NOT SCOLDING
you. im juz bored. u noe im a retard so
you can jus dun care bout wat im talking.
heheheheheheh!!!!!
lala.
lala.
lala.
lala.
lala.
lala.

i love you,**** ******!!!!!

2008-02-17T03:26:00.001-08:00

hi! people!!! i so miss him!!
nisa, zhiyin, angelyn,
i only have you three!!!
help me lehhsss...im
like screaming myself out these
loooong saturday and sunday
lah walaooo!!!!

hehe i love you three seyy
and please3,
dun tell ppl who tht person is!
im gg to burst
my head off man!
im watching ard
the world in
80 days and i cant seem
to concentrate!!!!

kaylahh, got nothing exciting
so, bubyeeeee!!!!!!!

2008-02-15T07:20:00.000-08:00

yay!!! today is the
best day of my life!!!
(ask zhiyin&nisa)
ooh, i really feel like a retard<3>

2008-02-15T06:53:00.001-08:00

hello peeeps! im not gonna
let this blog to die until
i get out of this school(i hope)
so, yay.happy reading!!!